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Saya kena 'secure-kan' ia kerana ada orang yang tidak sepatutnya baca, telah baca blog saya dan saya sangat tidak suka. Ini kerana, saya betul betul tidak suka dan boleh dikatakan benci orang ini.

Mungkin selepas ketika, saya akan un-blocked, bila orang ini sudah hilang dari dunia saya.

Oh my god.... guess what.. its so damm difficult for me to even write this... in Malay. :P It took me so much thinking.... and even with that... I still can find the right word.

Best Friend

According to Wikipedia : Best Friend, someone with whom one shares the strongest possible kind of friendship

My definition's :

Best friend is someone who always there for you, no matter what happened.

Best friend is someone whom never judge you, they just accepts you for whom you are, even you did the most stupid mistakes. Even you had advised her / him against the stupid decision.

Best friend is someone whom will be there for you, when you need a shoulder to cry.

Best friend will standby you no matter what.

Best friend is also someone whom you can put her / him as your emergency contact no.

Best friend is someone you can call anytime, just to cry or talk stupid....

Well, that's my definition's of best friend. I 'betrayed' that definition recently. I didn't do what I supposed to do as a best friend.

I was very angry with one of my best friend recently. He made a stupid mistake that almost cost our relationship, and he is going to make another stupid mistake.

He asked, will you be there for me if my decision now is a mistake?

I told him off, and told him that I won't be there for him anymore. I won't be his best friend anymore. I told him I looked down on him for making such a stupid mistake. I told him to get out of my life and my sight.

Now, I realized. He was really sad and disappointed when I told him this.

All his response was : I thought you are my best friend. I thought you will always be there for me. I thought you are the person I can always come back to after a disaster. I will always be your best friend.

I shouted back at him. 'You did not live up to the expectation as a best friend. That's why I hate you and angry with you!'

Then, I had a conversation (virtually) with my another best friend. I told her, my definition's of best friend. Then, it hit me. I did not live up to the best friend's expectation. I am not a good best friend. I was selfish to reject him and told him off like this, when he needed me most in this situation. He was there for me throughout my difficult situations.

I shouldn't judge him. I shouldn't give him an ultimatum. I shouldn't ignore him. I need to be there for him. He is my best friend. He had became part of my life. All my best friends are actually part of my life, no matter how they behaves or treat me...or judge me. And, I am a family to him. He treats me as one of his family.

Ah... so stupid of me. I am really really sorry dear. I shouldn't have done this to you. I know you are very disappointed and sad with me now. I am sorry. Let's make up (dinner etc... not on bed) and be the best of friend, forever.

I will always love you. To all my best friends out there, I love you guys. I am sorry if I ever judge you guys.

I felt better now. All I need to do now is just to give him a call and make up. And say sorry. Yes, Sorry is never the easiest words. But, guess we need to say it when we are in the wrong.

This post is dedicated to my best friend whom I abandon. I am sorry.

Can we convert relationship to friendship?

The answer is YES.

I used to not believes in that. Till a friend told me, why waste the years you had grown together, and know each other? Cherish the trust and memories, nobody can take that away from you.

He told me this when I was about to break-up with my boyfriend whom I dated for SIX years (Yeah, the previous one before the recent....).

Yes, SIX years is a long time..... we really see each other grown up and we had too much memories together. I took his advice, and we are still good friend till today and I never regret for staying in touch.

Then, the touchy subject matters came up again recently.., when I decides to take a 'cooling-off-period' with my boyfriend (or... I don't know how to define our relationship now).

Both of us trying to figure out what do we call 'US'. Boyfriend & Girlfriend.... hmmm.., that's not right. Close Friend? Hmmmm.. maybe? Friends with benefits?

*wink wink* I know a few of you raised your eyebrows....... come-on... benefits can refer to lots of other things, right? Such as we are always there for each other and care for each other. Nobody can take that away.

Till today, we yet to find out how to define our 'current-status-relationship'. So, please advice if anybody have a term for it other than 'cooling-off-partners'.

I am deciding on whether to convert our current-not-so-sure-relationship to friendship. Should I? Once converted, I think its tough to reverse it.

Ahhhh.... I am so confused and irritated at the same time. Why does relationship need to be so complicated? Is friendship not? I wonder.....

Taken for granted

Are we allowed to take people for granted?

I thought, if someone is really close to you, you are allowed to do that. At least, from my point of view. To me, we should be allowed to take people that close to us for granted, to certain extend.

Well, when I said taken for granted, is referring to take it for granted that they will always be there for us.

I believes most of us takes our family for granted. But, taking them for granted doesn't means that we don't do nice things with them, right?

We are allowed to take people we love for granted, don't we? I always take my family for granted, close friends for granted..... I take them for granted because I know they are the people that will stand by me through thin & thicks.....

When I say I take them for granted, means... I take it for granted that they will be there for me, through thick & thins....

'I take you for granted. I take it that you will always be there for me. You are not someone that I always need to check and see if you are still there....... that's why I take you for granted. I take you for granted in my life.... take it that you will always be there..... I take it for granted that you will tell me when things are not right in US. But you don't.... and that's such a disappointment. We are the 'granted-best-buddies-no-matter-what-happened' So, what happened to that pact?'

I asked this to my ex-bf aka 'so-called-closest-friend' recently........

Faith

"All you need is just a bit of faith"

I had heard /seen / read these in three different ways yesterday.

Read it in a book I was reading, Seen it on the internet and Heard it from Jojo Strauss from MixFm.

Yes, everybody need faith in their life. But how much? How much faith do we need?

I always have faith in myself, and also people around me. I always believes that, with faith, you can do anything. You can even bring a mountain down. Haaa.... Ya ya, exaggerate.

But do you know, sometimes you can lost faith in lots of things also? I think I lost faith in love now.

Please, can someone give me some guide on how to regain faith in love? How important is Love in our life?

to be continue.....

Kickboxing..... My new workout

Recently, I realized that I lost some weight (ya... partly because of the heartbreak that I am going through.....etc) but I also realized that I am not 'toned'...... yes, lost weight, but hmmm... flabby???
Not cool, right?

So, after some persuasion by the instructor whom is my bro's friend..., I decided to give it a try. Finally, I went for the Trial Class yesterday... (yeah, dragged my younger bro around... so at least if I fainted, am not alone.... ).

Turns out to be a great workout. At least am not as 'dead' I thought I will be... though I must admit, I was half-dead by the end of the One & Half Hour....

Hey, not bad for someone whom had not worked out since...... hmmmm.... how many years?? Can't recall.... Of coz, recently (few weeks ago...), I did try to do some running..., with the ambition to join the mini marathon introduced by Kar Hui. (I didn't make it though....). Wonder if Kar Hui made it.... hmmmmm... Kar Hui, did you?





Check out this Kickboxing centre....... Professional, Ok... www.tntkicboxing.net

I signed up for the classes at the end of the trial..... and hope that I will keep it up...

Oh My Jazz....

My Jazz can actually look so sexy like this.....

Happy Weekend

View while am resting....

Its been a while since I had a good and happy weekend. What to do.. most of my close friends are no in this country... *hint hint... u guys know who and where you are la har.....

Glad that one of my closest friend managed to squeeze a weekend to spend with me.... I was very happy and excited. Of coz I am also very happy that it turned out to be a great and good weekend.

Its true when people say....'its not where you go, its who you are with'..... I am so totally agree with that....

Thanks dear... its been a great weekend. See the big smile on my face. You had managed to put the stress and worries behind me... at least for the weekend.

Wake up wake up..... Today is Monday... back to work....

Love or Sympathy?

I was having a conversation with a close friend recently, and he was telling me about some situation he is in now... and not sure how to handle it. He is not sure if he love the person, or he just sympathy on her.

I decided to do a research on wikipedia to find out the meaning, and below are the explanation. Actually, Love is really a very complicated word, not to mention feeling.

Sympathy is a social affinity in which one person stands with another person, closely understanding his or her feelings.

Interpersonal love refers to love between human beings. It is a more potent sentiment than a simple liking for another. Unrequited love refers to those feelings of love which are not reciprocated. Interpersonal love is most closely associated with interpersonal relationships. Such love might exist between family members, friends, and couples. There are also a number of psychological disorders related to love, such as erotomania.

Unrequited love is love that is not reciprocated, even though reciprocation is usually deeply desired. The beloved may not even be aware of this person's deep feelings for them. This can lead to feelings such as depression, low self-esteem, anxiety, and rapid mood swings between depression and euphoria. Being such a universal feeling, it has naturally been a frequent subject in popular culture.


Erotomania is a rare disorder in which a person holds a delusional belief that another person, usually of a higher social status, is in love with him or her.

Tasting Room

Went to this place called Tasting Room last night with a few close friends, celebrating a friend's birthday. Tasting Room is located somewhere in Bangsar.... Food are nice and not too expensive. Its a great place to chill out.... and if you are a wine person, this place is just right for you. They even pair the right wine for every dish. Check out their website : www.tastingroom.com

Just to make you guys start to drool.... take a look at the food... :)

Love is....

'Before He Cheats'

CARRIE UNDERWOOD LYRICS

"Before He Cheats"

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach blonde tramp,
and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...

Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...

And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing some
white-trash version of Shania karaoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk"
and he's a thinking that he's gonna get lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom polo...
And he don't know...

That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats,
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might've saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...

Oh, you know it won't be on me!

Ohh... not on me...
Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little souped up 4 wheel drive,
carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...

Ohh... before he cheats...

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

Saw this article recently, and thought of sharing.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,this person will say or do something to bring therelationship to an end.

Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,love the person and put what you have learned to use in all o ther relationships and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.